Hello there. It has been awhile, yes?

The desire to blog was not around for the past few months as you can see my previous entry dated quite long ago. Time is available for me to update this space a little at the moment and why not post something new to it?

Deep down, completing A'Levels is one of the priority task in life which allows me to proceed further education like Degree and perhaps Masters one day. Of course, 'one step at a time'.

During the course of A'Levels, it has certainly taught me many valuable lessons from each of these subjects that I selected throughly, be it Law, Business and Economics.
Well, I would not say which subject is the most interesting to me but I dare to say all these subjects were able to widen my knowledge to a greater extent and definitely, this is the fun part of the course


In addition, this course is unlike back in those days where we studied from a primary school to secondary school. To be really honest, there were many differences from what we learnt in school as compared to this course. Back school, most of the things were spoon fed, you memorize and then you go the examination hall. The most common subject example to support what I just mentioned is, Moral. Basically, it was just like regurgiating, you know? Those silly 36 NILAIS (values) were pure bullocks. Alright, I will be fair and agree with some of you that subjects like Mathematics, Physics or Chemistry did offer some neccessary foundation before moving on to higher education.

Therefore, it is necessary for the Ministry of Education to review the current syllabus once again. Is this actually an effective way to educate our young Malaysians towards a developed nation by year 2020? With the present syllabus, will this also enable the young Malaysians to be competent, up for challenges with our kiasu(scared to lose) neigbour, Singapore? Wait, not only Singapore I am concerning about here but other parts of the world as well. Even our top local universities such as Universiti Malaya, Universiti Teknologi Malaysia, Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia and etc. had failed to bid a place in the World's Top 100 Universities. For obvious reasons, isn't it? Yes, I will never go into depth on this for fear offending anyone who reads my blog and leave unhealthy comments.

See you.

Before you would leave any hatred comments here, probably? I must say, it felt satisfying to know who are the winners over the last weekend's recent football match. Double joy for the Gunners too anyway. What an impressive play!

I have never long for the days to come when examinations are approaching closer and the thought of it frightens me down to my spine.

Do you feel me?

The sight of seeing numerous foolscap papers filled with notes scattering around the table can be demotivating at times. Well, I must have been a messy person, I suppose? Should have learn how to organize things in a properly manner as a part of growing up back when I was a younger. You do know how exactly it feels whenever your notes got misplaced and you might turn into a state of haywire searching high and low for them.

What really scares me most at this period of time ;

When you settle yourself down calmly,sitting down in the examination hall while waiting for the exam papers to be distributed. Taking a brief notice on who are your invigilators on that day. You start doing a short session of prayer deep down your heart, wishing yourself all the best and whatever you have prepared during those nights of burning midnight oil would come out.

This is the saddening part,
Scanning through the questions and unfortunately you just have to experiece some kind of brain freeze at the very moment (if you're unlucky or maybe you're too panic [?]) and struggling your way through figuring the answers until the end of time. Lord, I hope that will never happen. Not only applying to myself but to everyone around me taking this exam.

For some reasons, I do feel a little bit excited so that I can entirely get over A'Levels course and move on with life. That marks an end for the first phase to my higher learning education.

Best of LUCK!

This was how V's day for me, had a BBQ party session with a bunch of friends and bid our farewell to a friend here, Yi Ting!

It has been awhile I look happy like that in pictures, aye?



I do miss you dearly, really

My playlist is currently returning back in the days of old school, songs from Duran Duran, Boyzone, New Radicals to anything you can figure. Pretty cool picture from the band of, Oasis actually.
I rarely touch my camera these days, getting less and lesser ever since or I am not that good after all. The days are getting rough for me, amount of assignments have advanced to a higher level than previously. Feeling quite guilty for not being an environmental friendly, the amount of foolscaps papers thrown into the dustbin due to my lack of concentration when writing answers to my essays. There goes our greenhouse effect, hmm... Life in college is absolutely no-no bed of roses at all.

Oh wow, checkout the pubic hair there!
As we grow older, I tend to realize that we are filled with plenty of decisions to make. Most decisions are made when we are young rather than later in life and any slight mistake, it could amount to a serious misery. Therefore, we must be able to think things wisely before advancing to the next stage.

I got to keep my mindset alive, not letting any distractions to interfere my life which keeps me away from achieving life goals. We must keep going, and moving on. If the past still haunts you, do make changes to avoid things from repeating in the future. Nobody is a failure if they really value and find out what are their capabilities.

Do you know want to know what is tough?
The moment when you try really hard to prove what people had always thought about you was a mistake. However, when you successfully defeated these people for thinking you that way, this eases our minds greatly. On the other hand, there are some fucked up people who does not seem to understand you ,makes you feel a bit useless.

Hello there, people!

In fact, there was an entry before posting this up but due to my lack of consistency, I rather not upload it.
Well, I would not say year 2009 is great as far as now since it is only a beginning but definitely an awesome start.
And why is that?

When I was having my nap not too long ago, my dad text me and I have just realized how much I enjoy sleeping and would fall deep into sleep most of the times. Although the mobile phone was not too distant away, I could not hear the SMS tone, when two of my friends sharing their lives and thoughts, I would fall asleep and I would not know whether it is raining either cause I am just too deaf. Nope, this is not an awesome start obviously.

but here it is .....

In the text, my dad told me that my momma does not need to go for chemotherapy which is absolutely great! Most of the cancer patients would need chemotherapy as it is required for their treatment. A broad smile lighted upon my face and I just could not stop smiling and of course, I did not forget Him, the man above, God. And, I thanked him for all the happiness He brought to me and my family. See, God do help us in many ways, both indirectly and directly. I guess in my momma's case, her breast cancer is just a mild condition after all but it all depends whether will it occur again later.

Well, let's hope the rest of year 2009 will bring many of tears filled with joy, happiness and laughter!

Greetings everybody,

This is no longer a new thing for us to know, everyone of us must have heard about the awareness through media, leaflets or news since it is on a rise. To make it more simple, here is an image illustrated below for you to get a rough idea on what I am about to say next.

Note ; The whole intention of this entry is to draw more of your attention to the ones you love and not by seeking your pity at all because who knows, you might be next victim? * Touches Wood *
The pictures below are taken from various sites to increase awareness.

Honestly speaking, these past few weeks have never been too easy for me and I just cannot stop those numerous thoughts from flooding in my mind no matter how hard I try every single time (questions about what if and what if not). On the other hand, I have never thought what I actually see or read about people could actually end up in my life as well.

One morning, approximately 3 weeks ago, she was changing her clothes getting ready for work as usual. When she was about to put on her top, she felt some pain on one of the side of her breast. She reached out her hand and feels it, having to know she notices a lump her underneath. Her tone was a little different than every other day, (I sense fear), she hurriedly called her hubby to come over to have a look. I was still on bed, looking blur and wondering for a second who made that strange voice. Well, that person happens to me by mother. She suspects it could be a breast cancer.

I got up in a pretty slumber manner and told her this ''Aiyo, don't simply say larhhh! Breast cancer is on the left breast and not on the right and go get medical check up first''. Call me dumb or anything but I have always thought breast cancer only exists on the left, so I went around asking around my friend and she said, '' either one''. Now, I regretted saying that in the first place!

Over the next two days, she went over to University Hospital (UH) to have her breast checked under a mammogram scan. Mammogram usually gives a more clearer indication and gives out almost 95% detection if there is any cancer present. However, the front desk people who arranges appointments for this scan said, she would need to wait until next year, (May 2009) due to the large amount of people in the waiting list. It was kind of ridiculous for me one second, probably because UH is still a semi-governed body and hence people would go there rather than the private ones which are pricey.Obviously we advised her to get it done fast by going private ones instead.Money should never restraint you for health purposes although medical treatment do not come cheap these days.


Yup, the above picture is an example to examine breast cancer under a mammogram scan. If anyone out there gets horny by just staring at this picture, you are confirmed sick

Thereafter, she gotten the scan from Assunta hospital and the results showed there are cancer present and has spread to the lymph nodes. After all, you only need to pay an additional RM50 than to wait for UH.It was a heart breaking moment for myself and the rest of the family when I saw the medical report.Wild images keep running in my head thinking if one day she is gone for good?

Breast cancer awareness picture taken in Amsterdam

On a lighter note, she is diagnosed with a first stage cancer and will be undergoing an operation this Thursday. My only concern is, the treatment would take up at least 6 months which includes chemotherapy for 6 cycles. This will make her feel really exhausted, mouth sores, drop of hairs and vomiting. Chemotherapy is used to kill all possible remnants of cancer which are very tiny that cannot seen through latest technology. I honestly hope after all these obstacles, there would be no sign of recurrence.

My personal standpoint is, an early detention is a lot better than if it is too late.The chances of becoming breast cancer survivor are greater. There is nothing else I can do to help in a condition like this but to be an assistant and look after her at all times like how she would do for me when I was still little.

'' Don, Ken, Papa and myself will always be there for you ''

No updates for a long , long time.
Take care.

Just another two more days and I am officially off!

From there on, I will definitely update my blog to clear up the dusts.
Time to snap some picturrrrreeeee!

Geesh, I honestly dislike memorizing at times especially dealing with Latin terms and there is just too much to read.
Fine, some of you may find it simple to memorize with the tips of your finger but I find it quite tough since my brains are not running in a gigabytes/megabytes/zillionbytes memory as some of you might have.

It can be more worse if I choose to major in this field next year, if everything goes smoothly *prays hard* Nothing but to read all my life. Dealing with clients and dealing, truck loads of things to read and etc ("_)

No matter which course you choose to pursue, the most crucial thing that everyone should have is, passion. Without the passion and without the flame burning in your heart, there is no possible way you can make through out of it.

P/S ; I do envy and admire those people who speak/express/write with spontaneous English in their blogs which I find it hard to understand what are they trying to tell sometimes. Nope, not that kind of English where they use normal sentences and then add some bombastic words to it, that is not spontaneous. What I meant by spontaneous? Their usage of English is like as though they are an author of a book, very expressive indeed!

Geees. The results are pretty scary to me when I first saw them. Does this really make me not a Chinese at all?

September, 15 2008
Stadium Kelana Jaya





"There are too many days that I almost lost touch but it does not matter as the memories still stay within"

"At times, I just cannot stop myself from thinking whether will we ever be this close as we grow older"